Stuck in My Head

Today has been an interesting day. First let me say that yesterday challenged me and it definitely pushed me to a limit. For those of you that do not know, I have seven (7) sons still living at home and with the range of personalities from the 10 year old up to the 25 year old, things can become somewhat challenging. Especially when I need to work.

Back to today. I am finding myself stuck in my head a little in regard to not being where I want to be with my business. At this moment I am a one man bandstand. I create not only my products but also my labels, I package, I market (ha who am I fooling) or shall I say post on social media, I do pop ups, I am the accountant, the tax preparer, the organizer, etc. Not only do I do this but I do this while raising and teaching a house full of boys, while running another business, and with bad health.

I know in my heart of hearts my lack of networking, advertising, and marketing are hindering the growth of O'Dew Wish. I am an introvert and some things, especially pitching my business and networking make me so uncomfortable. To the point that anxiety peeks its head out and takes off running. I'm talking about full on sprint. sighs

Starting in August I will be attending my first Business Coaching Class. I've attempted to apply for assistance at a couple other places but each time my application was denied. By the grace of God I was told about KC Gift and attending two pop up events there last year and there aren't any applications that need to be filled out. Their doors are open for anyone who is in need of assistance so this is where I will start.

Until then, I am going to try to stop beating myself up-especially when I see others progressing. I start to wonder what am I doing wrong and other things. Now don't get me wrong. I never wonder about my product. I know what I create is good. I wonder about my methods, about my engagement with the community, etc. There are so many things/ideas that I have written down or typed up that I'd like to see this business be a part of or do but thus far those things remain on the paper they are printed on.

At the beginning of the day I know that God got me and I as soon as I start believing in myself the way that He believes in me and stop allowing this shy nature to control my narrative; this business will soar.